I've been writing with the Fish lately. Here is an acoustic version of "Selfish Like That". It was great to have Rod Knapp from No Reverse Gear join me on this song. It is a deeply emotional song for me. I can't wait to get this one recorded!!!
Covered in white, the happiest day of your life
Covered in black, I hope you're finding peace at last
Covered in gray, you don't feel anything anyway
We're all selfish like that, yes we're all selfish like that
Covered in love, that's the one you take advantage of
Covered in death, its only then you voice your regrets
Covered in fear, it'll hold you still for a moment my dear
We're all selfish like that, yes we're all selfish like that
You don't believe me, no you don't agree
You can't see it the way my eyes see
We're all selfish like that, yes we're all selfish like that
Covered in white, a mistake I'll have for my life
Covered in black, I hope you're finding peace at last
Covered in gray, I guess I'm waiting for a sunny day
Heather LoveJoy
Interested in the here and now ideas and impulses ...Charismatic...Creative...Compassionate...
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
The pre mortem decline
Manners.
They are dead.
Hold out your hand, turn your head with no appreciation expressed.
They owe it to you.
Go ahead and tell yourself again.
Its mine, I deserve it.
They are dead.
Hold out your hand, turn your head with no appreciation expressed.
They owe it to you.
Go ahead and tell yourself again.
Its mine, I deserve it.
Monday, January 14, 2013
All The Fish - Dreaming
It's a tough song to sing with the emotions behind it...
Look back to the days when you were mine
A frozen picture has faded with time
Oceans of memories are black & white
My regrets show that you know & I know that I'm
Dreaming of a place and of a time, when everything feels fine
I'm screaming, I'm dreaming
I've got to get out of this place because I'm bleeding out inside
To show you love now would be unkind
Living on your world left me confined
Where my road leads I can't define
But your love-sick smile sends me to the day where I'm
Dreaming of a place and of a time, when everything feels fine
I'm screaming, I'm dreaming
I've got to get out of this place because I'm bleeding out inside
You will wake up and wonder where I've gone
You can't follow me, this is the place where I belong
Now it's so hard to just say whats on my mind
cause I know you're not the one I'll have for all my life
Dreaming of a place and of a time, when everything feels fine
I'm screaming, I'm dreaming
I've got to get out of this place because I'm bleeding out inside
Just close your eyes and dream
baby just close your eyes and dream of me
Baby, maybe we could see each other in a dream
so baby, maybe we could just dream
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Thanks for All the Fish
Day 1.
I was a zombie walking. I cried briefly for a few minutes hours after the devastating phone call.
Day 3.
I went to your house. Numb, sweating, dry heaving. Hysterical crying outbursts at any given moment.
Day 6.
I saw you in a casket and vomited. It was actually true. You were dead.
Week 1 summary.
Absolute denial of some sort. My brain didn't function. I couldn't sleep, eat or think.
It is amazing what the sudden loss of a loved one can do to a person. Absolute sadness.
I can't believe we haven't spoken in 4 months. You lost it all, I still love you.
I was a zombie walking. I cried briefly for a few minutes hours after the devastating phone call.
Day 3.
I went to your house. Numb, sweating, dry heaving. Hysterical crying outbursts at any given moment.
Day 6.
I saw you in a casket and vomited. It was actually true. You were dead.
Week 1 summary.
Absolute denial of some sort. My brain didn't function. I couldn't sleep, eat or think.
It is amazing what the sudden loss of a loved one can do to a person. Absolute sadness.
I can't believe we haven't spoken in 4 months. You lost it all, I still love you.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Illusion
I've recently found myself in the strangest
mood of my life. All that surrounds me, all that I’m a part of, and all that I’ve
become is changing. I can step back and watch everything moving swiftly by and
watch everything fall apart. I’m waiting. For what, I am unaware.
Do we hide
behind the illusion of a made up sacred sense of life? All that I see others
living for makes no sense to me.
A force fed
existence. Our daily lives are mere distractions, in the end its all for
nothing. Is life an act? Are we all just waiting to die? No one wants to think
life is pointless, so we consume ourselves with goals and outcomes that
determine our self-worth. Are all of the “important” factors of life just
giving us some daily coping and distraction methods to wait for death?
These thoughts aren't fully derived, just blocked out into categories of questions and ideas.
Money.
Punching a clock 9-5?
The monotony of our routine. Do we pay attention to life
surrounding us? Why do we pride a banal existence on being a type-A, hardworking
job slave? Do we just get used to living our lives and routine that we are actually
numb to the rest?
Success.
Is it measureable? Does it really define us?
Religion.
Made up?
What if it was proven God does not exist? Would you be irate that you’ve wasted precious
time on reading and devoting your life to ancestral creative writing?
Love. A
selfish feeling?
How many can say they’ve loved unselfishly? Don’t we always
want something in return? Even with the greatest intentions, we all love
because of the amazing emotion that comes with love. What about lost love? Are
we continuing to be selfish to want to purge the planet of our exes? What
happens to love when it dies?
Competition. Do we
all just compete for who can distract and cope while waiting?
I am in a line, post marked circa 1983. We are all unaware
of the length of the line in which we stand, regardless of our post marked date.
Mike, You are cherished in my memories every day that I am in line.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
My memory is selective, I always forget.
How real does it look? I smile, but I’d rather be dead.
I usually want to hide away, it feels right.
What does it prove for me to be the one who runs to you?
It’s not me; it’s not all my fault.
I had to forgive for the both of us, bending more than you ever did.
You’ve never had love like mine before.
Are you still mad? My memory is
selective, I always forget.
Maybe if I were a little simpler, I wouldn't be so hard to understand.
Maybe if I weren't so obvious you’d still be the one I’d run
to
Now I can’t since I’m more than you can stand
More than you can accommodate
More than you can take
More than you can frustrate
More than you can handle.
You don’t seem to mind, you can give it to me.
I like it even when it hurts.
I just wanted to wake up.
I can’t express how good it finally feels to wake up and
feel okay about it all.
It feels so good to finally be released of you and who you
are.
You released me and didn’t know it.
It’s never enough, but it was always more than you could take.
When you still wanted again, I fought through it.
Now that I’ve told you, you better listen.
It is dead, as I who you once knew is dead.
I will love another.
Written: October 2010
It's Alright
It’s Alright
Shut your eyes and tell me all that you see
Soft hair, a smile, a soul you’d love to free
It’s not me so I’ll go & I’ll know there’s nothing left
to say
Just one last time
Pretend my smile will be your life
Our goodbyes won’t change
Both of us know too well
I’ll always smile when I hear your name
Just know it’s alright
It’s okay, I’m okay & it’s alright.
You fall away from me
It pours down on me
A sad smile is all you give
Rest for my heart will never be
Shut your eyes, its time.
Say the only name that floats into your mind
It’s not mine, but it’s alright
It’s not mine, but it’s okay and I’m alright
I will go. I will know, it’s okay, it’s alright.
Written: August 2010
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